Okay, so I’ve been messing around with tarot cards lately, just for fun, you know? And I kept pulling the 2 of Spades, or the 2 of Swords as some decks call it. It got me thinking, what’s this card really about?
First, I grabbed my favorite tarot deck – the one with the cool artwork. Then I spread out a cloth on my kitchen table, because, why not make it a little ritualistic? I shuffled the deck, focusing on understanding the 2 of Spades better. I pulled the card, and yep, there it was again.
Digging into the imagery
I stared at the card. Usually, it shows a blindfolded woman holding two swords, crossed in front of her. It’s kind of intense, right? The blindfold, to me, screams “not seeing the whole picture.” Like, being purposely in the dark about something.
- The blindfold: Represents a self-imposed inability, or refusal, to see the truth.
- The crossed swords: Symbolize a stalemate, a blockage of some kind. Two opposing forces or ideas at a standstill.
- Often there’s water in the background: Water usually means emotions in tarot, so this made me think about suppressed feelings, maybe contributing to the indecision.
My personal struggle with it
Honestly, it hit me pretty hard. I’ve been putting off a big decision about whether to take on a freelance project. It would be great for my career, but it would also mean way less free time. Classic two-swords dilemma, huh? I realized I was kind of blindfolding myself – not really looking at all the pros and cons, just stuck in “I don’t know, I don’t know” mode.
So I decided to do something about it. I grabbed a notebook and made two columns: Pros and Cons. I literally forced myself to write down every little thing I could think of about this freelance gig. It was tough! At first, it felt like pulling teeth, but once I got going, it was actually kind of freeing.
The end
After filling out the lists, I looked at them, side by side. It still wasn’t a super clear-cut answer (life rarely is, right?), but I felt like I could finally see the situation. I wasn’t so blindfolded anymore. I still haven’t 100% decided, but I’m a lot closer. I’m going to sleep on it, maybe consult the cards again (but not get obsessed!), and see how I feel in the morning. It’s all about taking off the blindfold, bit by bit, and facing whatever’s there, even if it’s tricky.
